| Charlotte Mandel HONING |NATIONAL DAY OF MOURNING |MY FATHER AT NINETY-TWO, Splitting the Days|APPROACHING BLINDNESS | PAINTER'S NOTEBOOK Charlotte Mandel is the author of six books of poetry, the most recent, a collection, SIGHT LINES. She has published two poem-novellas which re-vision biblical women--THE LIFE OF MARY (foreword by Sandra M. Gilbert) and THE MARRIAGES OF JACOB. Other titles are KEEPING HIM ALIVE, a father-daughter sequence; DOLL, a long poem; and A DISC OF CLEAR WATER. She coordinated the Eileen W. Barnes Award, a nationwide contest to publish first books by women over 40, and edited the anthology, SATURDAYS WOMEN, co-edited by Maxine Silverman and Rachel Hadas. She has received two fellowships in poetry from New Jersey State Council on the Arts and was named Open Voices Winner by The Writers Voice in New York City. She has been a Geraldine R. Dodge Foundation Fellow at Yaddo, and received the Woman of Achievement in the Arts Award from New Jersey Business and Professional Women. She has also published short fiction and literary essays. A project grant from the Alumni Association of Montclair State University supported her research on the role of cinema in the life and work of poet H. D. (Hilda Doolittle). She currently teaches poetry writing at Barnard College Center for Research on Women. [Sample poems are from SIGHT LINES (MidMarch Arts Press, 300 Riverside Dr. New York City 10025)--except where indicated. Copyright © Charlotte Mandel, 1981-1999.] HONING The kitchen's electric clock mimes the rasp of breadknife honed on an oval stone rod. This was my mother's stone, black rubbing to gray, worn like cheekbones on an elongated blind face through all the working years of her life. Women are always working their hands-- the knitting lacing hands probing like freshets of water for place carving handholds for energy, motion sounding the birth of faces. Women have always flowed upon stone, persistences of their bodies like knives made of water carving as they are sharpened, oblique blades cutting the twelve striations of wheel into channels that rock may breathe sun coming alive chips of light skipping water surface to surface skinning the earth NATIONAL DAY OF MOURNING --for Oklahoma City, April 19, 1995 Soot swirls across the cities. At half mast, limp stripes stroke the poles, stars blink smoke-dried tears for Baylie, her doll-limbs of bloodied silk spilling drops like a breast too full of milk. Mouth on the insuck of a scream, her bier grimed rescuers arm, her dirge deafening blast. Spring. The maple like a cheer leader shakes clusters of yellow papery fringe, fresh beginnings of pods--light propeller wings children pinch onto noses, march and sing, chins tilted. Squirrels go drunk on green flesh, juice-filled kernels. Lawns quiver under rakes. Street chase: tricycles firing pistol caps. On screen: Roll call Flowers Teddy bears Taps. ______________________________________________________________________________ COLLECTING TINFOIL Combing the alley, I hunched my shoulders and crimped my mouth, took small steps too slow for streetside dealings in baseball cards and cellophane bags of marbles. Winners riffled stacks of phototickets or knuckled glass immies fast as bullets but I was a collector of tinfoil, one in a straggle of loners, hunter-gatherers picking empty packs of cigarettes and gum. Our goal to peel the metal liner intact, spread the leaf easy as a tongue over a globe of ice cream upon the enlarging nugget, a labor of weeks and months for the diameter of an eye. Utmost size was infinity--a word I'd been taught to mean there was no end ever to more. The ball existed, matter glistening of nothing but itself, an integrity. Inside ourselves were uncontrollable organs lined with waving cilia, shapes like swollen squids were crushing our food, permeating our skins with indelible scent. The war came sniffing. Somewhere within the long guns, my crinkled tin leaf could spring a thousand triggers, flare red rocket barrage in the dawn's early light. Swift uniformed children set to the gleaning of wrappers fallen in the streets. Before my uncles sailed or flew across oceans, they patted me on the shoulder, saved for me empty packs fragrant with bits of tobacco. It was for their sake, they said, I hunted camels luckies old golds. The ball given form by the fingers and palms of my hands batted itself off to ring the war's end as the whistling world shattered indivisibles. Brand new particles sifted through the sieves of our skins, buffing the old parts of bodies aglow, live metallic air collecting the luster at will. [In SIGHT LINES, first appeared RIVER STYX] MY FATHER AT NINETY-TWO, SPLITTING THE DAYS It's five minutes to twelve and the sun glares in our faces--quite a phenomenon, he says, to see the windows full of light and everyone going about--at midnight! The clock plays second fiddle to his brain. An hour's nap and he begins the day again, washes, changes his shirt, and expects his breakfast on the table. He respects my worn explaining as a kind of busy work, shrugs with courtesy. He is dizzy with the earth's rotation spinning away twenty-four to the dozen, each brief new day a clone to the last. Like a match burning meridians, he strikes his shadow's turn. [in KEEPING HIM ALIVE, first appeared SENECA REVIEW] APPROACHING BLINDNESS Given clear horizon, the erratic lenses of my eyes follow a slow blue crescent of darkness ascending. Steepness of the meadow slope dissolves in earth's shadow -- tonight rotates into view. Edges lose power. Cataracts shatter the naked geometry of the moon into brushstrokes of luminous scribble. Sure of my field as any blade of grass, I take no care. Breathing is sight re-tuned: September odors of earth after rain reveal roots alive with tilling motion. It is not the bird I see, talons fast within a weave of scrub twigs, but its dart into flight--scrim of leaf in commotion, skin's prickle--as though a night spider's first thread has been cast as far as it may go. I lift my face to tracking calls of crows, to keys of black wings releasing tumblers beyond our web of sky. Not a wing stumbles. [in SIGHT LINES, first appeared NEW MILLENIUM WRITINGS] PAINTER'S NOTEBOOK --To A. S. "Paris is gr-ray!" the consonant growls from your throat. Across Virginia meadow you stride into feral explosions of color -- watercolor brush on blue-lined stenographer pad recording secrets that summer's toiling green overwashed-- color that crackles, no longer to be sipped. Root, core and branch done with growing at last. Your notebook fills ...reds... yellows... mauves Sunlight ignites, sifts through the two of us. Nimbly over the dawn your plane will carry this spark of our meeting. And parting, you tear out a page -- fragrance in a square of paint -- breeze in the tatter of a spiral bound edge -- The forest blazes on my desk... consoling as the trills of wild birds who call time and place to one another and do not know that a listener born singing out of tune finds harmony a cappella line by page. [Sample poems are from SIGHT LINES except where indicated. Copyright © Charlotte Mandel, 1981-1999.] [Back to Top] |